Disappointed!!!

This girl could have avoided all of this!

Did she think this through? NOPE!

She is supposed to be this smart, thoughtful person. She is supposed to have common sense.

She did not think about the trouble that could happen being a lone woman in a new town with no one who knows her.

That is extremely dangerous and could have been avoided altogether.

I can not believe that she gave the driver her money and possessions for safe keeping.

Just keep it on your person or next to you.

Does she think about that? Nope and now she has nothing at all.

At least she had the common sense to hid herself at night so nothing happens to her.I understand her wanting to get away from Edward but she could have just avoided him in the house.

She let her emotions get away with her and overpower her rational thought.

Now she is going hungry, sick, and homeless. She has nothing and no one but herself to blame for her current situation.

I do not blame the townspeople for being wary of her because if I was in their situation I would be the same.

I am thankful for the people who did finally give her a place to stay.

All she wanted was some food and did not think they would let her stay the night.

They were probably so surprised that she did not care if they let her stay. I know I would have been.

I am glad that they let her stay because she would probably have died in the storm.

If she had not run away then she would not be in this situation.

If you can not tell I am being just a little petty about the whole thing.

I feel that it is well deserved so I don’t feel bad about the fact I am petty against a character in a book.

Wedding or Not

The night before the wedding was a weird one.

When she was telling Edward about her dreams and that person she saw, I was so confused about all of it.

The dreams were weird and could be worrying to somebody who is superstitious. I see abandonment issues in Jane from the dreams. She is afraid that he will decide to leave her.

The child, I assume, is their child. She could be worried that he will leave her and the child to fend for themselves.

The dreams could also be a representation of the distance in their relationship as Edward is very secretive about things to Jane.

Now, the woman she saw is what really confuses me.

I honestly don’t know what to think about the whole thing.

It must be true as there was evidence that it happened, but she must have imagined some things.

Was this woman really like a vampire? Did she really have red eyes?

Who was this person? She was in the house and as no one saw anything, she must have been there the whole time. I just do not understand what is happening.

Edward was very impatient to be married to Jane if the dragging was any indication.

It was a very small wedding as neither of them have any family. The only witnesses to the actual wedding are the two people who came in from the cemetery and the church parson.

I find it very weird that those two men would just invite themselves into the church to watch Jane and Edward get married.

Then the truth came out.

Edward already has a wife that is living in the same house as them.

The woman is literally insane and looks like a derange demon.

I understand his reasons to keeping her locked up, but I don’t approve of the way he has gone about this.

I understand not wanting to tell Jane until after they were married. I do not like it, but I do understand it.

Should he have kept his wife at the house under Grace Poole’s care? No, he should have gotten her professional help and tried to get a divorce quietly.

His wife was the one to try killing Edward and her brother Mason. She was also the one Jane saw in her room that night before the wedding.

My heart goes out to all of them. None of them deserve to be in this situation.

Poor Jane just can not handle it and wants to leave even though she still loves Edward.

My heart hurts the most for Edward though. He never wanted any of this to happen and when he finally finds happiness this happens. It is not fair as he just wants to be happy and have a companion to spend the rest of his life with.

This strong, closed off man breaks down crying at the fact that the woman he truly loves wants to leave him while still loving him.

Jane and Edward are to blame for each other’s unhappiness. They were both cowardly about everything.

Edward was a coward for not just being upfront to Jane and Jane was a coward for running away without even saying goodbye to anyone.

I just hope that this separation does not last very long.

I’m Getting Excited

Edward and Jane are such a good match for each other. They can tame the other so effectively and they communicate to each other.

As they say communication is key to a successful relationship.

He is so sweet and caring to Jane that it makes my heart hurt.

I just wish that she would allow him to spoil her more she does. It is not like he is trying to buy her affections. He just want her to have what he feels she deserves.

I love how sure Jane is of who she is and not wanting to be compared to something she is not. The quote in the picture above is an excellent example of this.

Their love for each other is pure and what I personally aspire to have one day.

(Ok, I am currently watching the scorpion king right now and the acting is almost comical. I keep getting distracted by it.)

The wedding is almost apone us and I can not wait.

I just wish Edward would be more open with Jane. I can understand wanting to wait till a more appropriate time for some topics, but him being more open would lead to least problems. The longer he waits to reveal certain secrets to her the more problems their marriage will have.

Jane’s relationship with Adèle is so sweet. She acts as a mother to her and wants to make sure she does not feel neglected.

I love that Edward allowed Adèle to come to town with them at the request of Jane. She has him in the palm of her hand half the time.

When he was away for business, my heart burst with joy at how affected Jane was by his absence. The fact that she would walk to try to meet him sooner was very sweet. It was unnecessary but still very sweet of her.

(I am going to leave it at this and continue when I am much more focused. Even now as I am typing this I am far to distracted as it took me literally a minute to finish this sentence.)

Update On Me

I have not been able to read as much as I would have liked this weekend. I have been suffering from headaches that are more stubborn than I am. This is, I assure you, pretty hard to do.

I admit that I mostly slept this weekend when I could have been more proactive in my reading.

Alas I can not go back in time do spend the weekend different. I will just have to catch up to my reading schedule.

I promise to try to be better about staying on my reading schedule. Key word being “try” in this statement.

Finally Some True Happiness

I’m so happy right now!

First off, John dies and Mrs. Reed is dying.

Talk about some poetic justice coming and slapping you in the face.

John is a horrible human being and was basically a bottom feeder. Mrs. Reed was to blind to what her son is doing to her to put a stop to it. She is also just a jealous little brat you needs some sense knocked into her.

I mean, she said it herself that she was jealous that Jane’s uncle payed more attention to Jane than his kids. Plus his dying wish was that Jane be treated like family, but he said nothing about her or their kids.

Then, there was that whole thing with telling Jane’s living uncle that she had died just so she would not get some happiness.

I found it kind of funny that Jane’s cousins did not care at all about the fact their mother was dying.

I loved how when Jane got home everyone was happy to see her, especially Adèle, Mrs. Fairfax, and Mr. Rochester.

The conversation between Jane and Edward was an emotional rollercoaster for me to read.

I was sad, happy, frustrated, angry, and everything in between.

When they confessed that they loved each other, I was smiling so big. If anyone looked at me in class when I read it, they would think that there was something wrong with me.

All this time we were lead to believe that he was going to marry Miss Ingram when in reality he was talking about Jane. All he ever said was that he was going to marry soon. He gave no indication that he was actually thinking about Jane when he said this.

They are so happy and they have their first kiss together. The entire time I don’t just mentally saying “finally” and freaking out.

The fact that they did not see Mrs. Fairfax when they came in and kissed was great. I can just imagine what her face looked like in that moment.

It was so sweet that he kept coming to check up on her when they were back inside, in their rooms.

The tree being split in half must mean something though. The tree is were they confessed to each other. That same night it gets hit with lightning and split. That can not be just a coincidence.

It is very much possible that I am reading to much into this.

This is just how my mind works. It finds instances that may or may not be a coincidence and starts to speculate about what it could mean.

The fact that they have already confessed their feelings to each other and are getting married, worries me something fierce. What are the last fourteen chapters going to reveal to us and what is going to happen?

Ok, I was just looking for the pictures you see above, and I may have or may not have just spoiled something for myself. I am literally shook.

Stupidity and Mystery

That a greater fool than Jane Eyre had never breathed the breath of life; that a more fantastic idiot had never surfeited herself on sweet lies, and swallowed poison as if it were nectar,”–Jane Eyre

I would like to apologize in advance for this will likely turn into a rant.

Chapters sixteen through twenty, where I have currently stopped reading at, gave me so much anxiety, anger, proudness, and confusion.

I am so not okay with what has happened.

First off, Mr. Rochester is so stupid!

Jane saves his life and he gets all caring and sweet. Then the next day, he leaves and is got for weeks just to show up with a bunch of pretty, single women. Especially one that he is supposedly going to marry! Like what is wrong with this dude. Ugh!

Second off, who in their right mind does this to a girl that they show interest in. You are just going to show up with this gorgeous girl who shows an interest in you and you her. Then make Jane be in their company and not even acknowledge her.

I was so mad when they started talking bad about governesses’ with Jane in the room. Jane is a governess and you are just going to do that in front if her. Let’s not for get that Adèle is in the room with them.

Then Jane leaves early and he comes after her, wanting to know why she is leaving. He comments on her appearance saying she looks sad, pale, and depressed.

Of course she is sad you idiot! You are prancing this beautiful, educated women in front of her.

Don’t get me started on how she treats Adèle. I wanted to slap some sense into her.

I would just like to say how much I love the way Jane thinks. I just love how she picks up on the little things, like that witches lack of personality and interest in Mr. Rochester.

It was kind of funny that he dressed up as a gypsy and tells the witch that she only wants Rochester to advance in society.

When Jane was with the “gypsy” and he said all those things, makes me wonder if he was trying to trick her into confessing her feelings to see if she likes him too.

I also love the fact that she was the only one to figure out that the gypsy was in fact Mr. Rochester.

What is with the mystery that is the whole Grace Poole situation. I don’t understand and it is driving me crazy. Is Grace mentally ill or something? This is the only thing I can think of to explain her behavior.

She has tried to kill two people and he is covering up for her. He was one of the two she almost killed!

Why do they fill sorry for her? What is wrong with her?

What Rochester was saying about his younger years must have something to do with it. Something is going on as some of the staff seem to know and they get all hush up around Jane about Grace.

I honestly don’t know what to think right now and this is making my head hurt.

Sorry

I know I was supposed to post yesterday but I was so busy this entire weekend.

All day Friday, I was an ULM for district honor choir practice.

When I finally got home from that I literally passed out asleep and was only awake long enough to eat and take a shower.

Saturday was the concert and that was so exhausting that once again I passed out asleep.

Then on Sunday I was barely even home. I had church till twelve and then had to eat a fast lunch and change.

After church, I participated in the pro life march and by the time that was over it was time for church again.

After church, I finally got to go back home and had time to shower before I was sound asleep once again.

So I literally was either out of the house doing something or passed smooth out the entire weekend.

Mr. Rochester

We finally get to meet the man himself!

The way they meet is kind of iconic and Jane makes a great first impression.

I mean how many people can say that they had a similar first meeting with their employer.

(Plus, the dog, Pilot, sounds so cute and I wish I could see him in person to love on him.)

Rochester is so straightforward and blunt with the way he speaks to Jane. He is so demanding, as that is what he is use to, but at least he apologizes for being so rude.

Their conversations together are very amusing to me. They are both witty in there own right and kind of sassy with some of there responses.

Right off the bat, Rochester seems to have a trust in Jane that he does not have with other people.

He is so very guarded with everything that it makes him seem cruel. The way he interacts with people is almost like he does not know how to act and talk to others.

This could be, and I am pretty sure it is, caused by what his family did to him. He just does not want to trust anyone in fear of being hurt again.

He talks in riddles to possibly drive people away. Most likely the people who aren’t worth being in his life.

In a way I pity him for what he has been put through but I also don’t want to pity him as I feel like he doesn’t want it.

Can we just talk about the fact that Adèle might be his daughter. I was so shook when reading this that my jaw physically dropped.

Then there was that whole almost dying thing that happened. Thank God for Jane.

Her saving his life just brought them closer together.

We finally have the first true, open sign that he likes her.

I am so excited to really get into the main story line and to see how they fall in love with each other.

Also is anyone else really annoyed with all the French being spoken. Personally I don’t know French so I keep having to stop and translate what is being said. I want it to stop so much.

Fast Forward To Her New Beginning

Preview of what is being skipped:

The outbreak of sickness brings public attention to the state of the school. The public learns of the unhealthy nature of and around the school and this causes an uproar among the people. The school gets new patrons and the school is fixed up and made better.

Then it skips 8 years so, Jane is now 18 years old.

Jane starts teaching at the school as she was one of the smartest in her group. Miss Temple gets married and leaves the school.

Back to the “present time” in the story.

Jane wants a change in her life and wants to see more than just the school and local town. So, Jane starts looking for a new job.

She finds a job as a governess to a young girl and that pays double what the school pays her.

The day before she leaves to travel to her new job, Bessie shows up.

Bessie is now married with two children and still works at Gateshead.

They catch up on what has happened since Jane left and she finds out what has become of her “family.”

Jane is better off than her cousins could ever hope to be. The state of her cousin’s compared to Jane makes me very happy.

Jane shows Bessie some of her accomplishments and Bessie seems to be proud of what she can do. She kind of says that it is the best she could have hoped for.

The next day they go their different ways. Bessie, going back to Gateshead, and Jane to her new job.

Many hours later, Jane finally arrives at her new home.

She meets Mrs. Fairfax who is exceedingly kind to her right off the bat. She seems like the sweetest old lady who feels like your grandma.

After Jane is warmed up by the fire, Mrs. Fairfax take Jane to her living quarters. The room given to Jane are modest and comfortable instead of one of the stately rooms.

The next day, Jane is up and about early in the morning exploring her new home.

Later on, Jane meets Miss Adèle Varen. She is to be Jane’s student and only appears to be eight years old.

Adèle is a pretty young girl with ringlet’s in her hair and grew up in France.

During breakfast, Jane learns more about Adèle and what she can do. She tells Jane of how she would entertain guest and when asked to show Jane, she gladly does so.

She seems like such a cute girl and she is very sweet to everyone, if a little cheeky with her answers.

After breakfast is finished, they go to the library to begin Adèle’s schooling. As she is not used to the long hours of study, Jane only does a half day to help ease her into a routine.

Later, Jane meets up with Mrs. Fairfax and starts to ask questions about the master of the house. Said master of the house is rarely home and is called Mr. Rochester. Jane tries to get information about the type of man he is as she is curious about who she is working for.

She does not get much information from Mrs. Fairfax.

Mrs. Fairfax proceeds to give Jane a tour of the grand estate.

The place sounds very pretty to me and very fancy. I would not want to touch much of the things in the house for fear of breaking something or messing something up.

Chapters 7-9

Such is the imperfect nature of man! Such spots are there on the disc of the clearest planet; and eyes like Miss Scatcherd’s can only see these minute defects, and are blind to the full brightness of the orb” –Jane Eyre

Okay, these chapters made me a little bit emotional. They are more on the depressing side of things and I’m not okay.

We have the older girls at the school manipulating the younger girls into giving them their food. So, all the younger girls are basically being starved. Then we have Brocklehurst, the owner of the school.

I hate this man with a passion and so will you if or when you read this book. This man shows up after three weeks of Jane being there and makes her stand on the stool in front of everyone. Then he has the gall to start spreading the lies told to him by Jane’s aunt. He ridicules her and makes a production out of it. He proceeds to punish Jane by making her stay standing on the stool so everyone will see her. (Talk about cruel and unusual punishment!)

Thank God for Helen! She gives Jane the strength to suffer through her punishment.

Jane finally allowed herself to break down after everyone left the room. Helen comes to comfort her and Jane states her fears of what everyone will think of her now. So, Helen told her this:

Miss Temple, the loving superintendent of the school, takes the girls to her room and allows Jane to defend herself from the charges Brocklehurst made against her. She believes Jane and she gave her a hug and kiss. All three of them have tea together. Plus they eat some food. Thank God for that! Lord knows they need it.

(Can I just say how much I love this woman for being so kind and caring to Jane! No adult has ever been so kind to her so far in this book.)

Jane is cleared of all charges laid against her and finally starts feeling accepted by her peers and teachers.

Then spring comes.

Because of their poor living conditions and location, an outbreak of typhus occurs. This causes most of the school to become sick and many died from the disease.

Helen become ill, not with typhus like everyone else, but with consumption. Sadly, Helen is dying because of this. Jane has not been allowed to see Helen while she is sick, so she sneaks out to see her. After an emotional conversation with Helen accepting that she is dying, they fall asleep.

Those were the last moments of Helen’s life.

Miss Temple finds Jane asleep with her head on Helen’s shoulder and arms around her neck. Only problem was that Helen was dead by this point.

Jane states that it took fifteen years before Helen’s grave had a tombstone marking it. The tombstone read resurgam meaning “I will rise again!

I hate the fact that Jane lost the first person to ever be her friend and the first person to believe what she says she experienced growing up with her aunt.